I don't have a clever title...so get over it

Well, I was told to update this. I don't really have much to update. School blows right now, especially the research paper, regular paper, and 2 finals that I need to take. But as of Friday I'm finished with this semester. Then on Monday, May 7th, I'm flying to Scottsdale, Arizona to tag along on my mom's business trip. It's May 7th-11th, and you have no idea how excited I am about it! We are staying in the Resort Suites, and I'm not really sure what that means, but it sounds really fancy! I'm going to lay out by the pool and get a tan, and read books, and catch up on all the celebrity gossip I've missed these past few weeks.
Then May 14th Maymester starts, and I'll have class from 6-8 Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesdays until June 1st. I think I'm just going to go home on Wednesday nights, cause I really have no reason to be in Columbus. One reason I thought I had dropped me like a hot potatoe.....his loss. I've cleared it with my boss, and I'll just work Mon-Wed.
Then I'm taking 2 classes during June term, which means class 9-12 everyday, and work a few days a week. No one will be in Columbus, so maybe I'll do really well in school? Or I'll just be bored out of my mind. Probably the latter.
It's weird, I have trouble believing freshman year is pretty much over. Maybe I'm just really sentimental and weird, but I don't even know where all the time went. I'm kinda not ready for everyone to go home for the summer. But what can you do?
I came home, back to Snellville, this weekend. It's been rough; it's always rough coming home. But I had a really good conversation with my mom, about the things that are really eating at me. There's the obvious-her and my dad divorcing. The papers have been filed and it's just a matter of time. She's alright-hanging in there. We talked about my Grama alot, her past and some stories and stuff. And boys. And I'm just so frustrated with males, and I'm bitter, and angry. And I don't have influential men in my life. Seriously, my dad left, C4C is completely segregated, and I thought I was seeing someone, and I think he bailed but forgot to tell me? Story of my life. So, my prayer for myself is to lose the bitterness, cause it takes up way too much space. After our conversation, my mom went into the church and saw a quote that said "Without change, there would be no butterflies". True, it was a quote from one of the preschool walls, but still, maybe it's something.
I'm going back to Columbus tomorrow, knowing that I need an attitude adjustment. I didn't say my attitude will be better-but I'm aware some things need to be changed.
Goodnight!

So, no one told you life was gonna be this way?

I've discovered Friends. Its become a really bad problem. And I L-O-V-E it!

Life's been a little rough the past few months. After a long few months of lots of problems, my Grama passed away on March 18th. Ever since November, she's been in and out of the hospital and rehab facilities for repiratory prblems. I suppose her body just gave out. She passed away in Hospice, so she was comfortable. And the funeral service was beautiful. It was a pretty spring day, and I know that's the only way she would have wanted it. And I haven't been very emotional about it. I think it's because I'm so excited for her. Now, she gets to be with my Grampa in heaven, with all of their pets, and they are young and beautiful again. To me, thats beautiful. And she doesn't have breathing problems and he isnt paralyzed from his stroke. It's beautiful. I got to speak at her funeral for about 10 minutes, and it really was beautiful. She wouldn't have had it any other way.
But I do cry. A lot, actually. But when I cry, it usually isn't for myself or the fact that shes gone. It's for my mom. I cannot imagine how she feels about now. Her husband left her, and now the one person who was a lot of her support and the person who is always supposed to be there for you, her mother, passed away. She's 47 and without any parents or a husband, and in 5 months only Sarah will be at home. I just cry for her. But she's also the strongest person I know. Whenever we talk about what all is going on, which is quite often, she just keeps telling me that God really is all you need in this world. And I've come to see that. But still, it makes my heart hurt.

But I think things are looking up now. I mean, they have to, right? I know that having God is everything. If you have God, you have everything you'll ever need in life. And thank you for the prayers. It really has meant a lot to me. Have a great week!